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Читаю френд-ленту и мне снова грустно от того, что я не так близка, как мне бы хотелось, с ним, или с ней. кажется, мне немного одиноко. но разве я могу сказать ему/ей, что я об этом думаю?

господи, когда же это все закончится, когда я буду приходить домой к тому, с кем мне искренне приятно будет общаться, когда никто не будет ко мне лезть, боже мой, хоть дома не появляйся. это такая дикая слабость - идти на ссору, но я просто не могу, нельзя же все время игнорировать и молчать - единственный залог мира..
хочется убиться просто, это НЕВОЗМОЖНО!!!

Сегодня у нас внепланово отменился английский) после звонка матявина не появилась, мы сидели и как всегда смеялись, обсуждали разную ерунду, и когда прошло семь минут после начала урока, решили подождать еще 8 и быстренько уйти) закрыли поплотнее дверь, думали придвинуть парту, чтобы она не зашла, если все-таки решит это сделать. Кто-то иногда перебивал разговор, чтобы напряженно прислушаться к голосам в коридоре, было ужасно смешно) ровно в 15 минут мы в прямом смысле выбежали из аудитории, гадая, напишет она на нас докладную или нет) хотели оставить ей какую-нибудь неприличную записочку на доске, чтобы она от нас наконец отказалась) собрались внизу и всей группой пошли в грабли, где начало активно обсуждаться моральное падение русской литературы… так угарно это можем обсуждать только мы)


Иногда так бывает, что идешь в фа с самым приподнятым настроением, а потом оно постепенно угасает. Я, конечно, люблю, когда происходит наоборот..
Ну почему каждый день не так весело, как в день празднования др azkewl)

*coming into the room, dad's sittin' there with a book, raises his head*
- hey Val, do you know that the chances of an electron coming through a.. let' say, a chink, is equal to the sum of probabilities of it passing all the possible ways to this chink?
- er..
- It turns out that it kinda smashes itself in the space.
- Dad? sorry, but i don't really get it.
- Well, one famous physicist said the day anyone gets it all science will come to the end..
*goes back to reading*

step by step, heart to heart..

I'm dreaming again.
The spring is blooming around, just as my heart does. Ehh.. nevermind lessons, still I like coming to my uni every day and see familiar faces that i got used to and that i sometimes admire so much.
Days fly by - uni, talking to friends & laughing, then endless cafes, cinemas, shops, plans, new clothes, new glosses, new glasses.
A look in the mirror - what would I say bout myself seeing that a year ago? almost perfect - I'd say. A real Patrick's kitten.
I've got almost everything. What about love now..

i understood something interesting, i really enjoy being capricious. more, i like people who enjoy me being that, because actually that's how i want to get sure in their care, for i need it. that's why sometimes i inconrollably play up)

i feel not so ok now, guess i should sleep really more.(

maybe tomorrow I'll be lucky to go to the cinema& watch the painted veil.

I don't know what's happening to me.
I'm going to tell you about Kira Plastinina - designer of 14 years old. We saw her shop in Evropeisky. Almost all of her clothes suck. T-shirts are printed with her little brother's paintings (he's kinda 4). I think she's a rich daddy's girl. Everything is pink and she is a fan of Fergi (or how her name is written). If I was 14 and had so much money, i would go to New Zealand, then London, all theatres there, then to the sea. Then I would pay to enter Limerick college (with Lel). And dance classes. And I would have bought a ship to travel and medieval dresses to dance under the moonlight.
And that's not enough.

added some pics to LJ photogallery. It's just a "fountain", you have to click on a pic 10 times till you see its normal size. what a stupid system! anyway. we were just havin a little fun in topshop with Lelland, before watchin ghost rider (god sees i wasn't eager, but actually i loved it)))

well. If something i want doesn't happen for a long time - maybe it should be forgotten? (not counting fucking FA theatre which promises to call me back and doesn't do it for the second time, that's what i call care for students...)
I have lots of things to do, time passes as I'm moving to my target. Head up - and nothing else matters.
I know what I'm going to become.

Happy St Valentine's to all of you again and thank you so much for congratulations - i appreciated them)

the movie is good. the guy is handsome. psychos rule.

and why don't my avatars change from post to post like in every normal journal?

pointless day, so many things to do tomorrow. and still i loved it! ate some pizza at home with my friend, chatting, but actually pizza didn't cost the money i paid for it. found out i can download movies from a new perfect source. want to pass some quiz, dear Lelland, if you get a good one, plz tell me))
reading "black and red". an absolutely misunderstandible book. characters change to the opposite, let's say, every 10 pages. but i love it. of course.

Christian is such a talented actor, I simply envy him! How can he be so goddamn talented!!

I realized there is no picture of me here. So get one - New Year, before the party

stupid icq doesn't work again.
if not lelland and THE DATE OF THAT DAY - 7.02.07, the day would be silly. foolish academy. foolish me.